Closing a chapter…

Hello Sunshine,

it is now time for me to close a chapter in the book of our lives.

We wrote together a very dense and rich chapter. I would have liked it to cover more pages, more years, but you decided otherwise.

This chapter started the day I saw you in your small office, almost at the end of the third floor. That day, like thunder, you struck me!

You seemed sweet, you were beautiful, I felt you needed somebody to help you raise, you seemed worth so much more than what you were that I felt for you on that instant.

It took me time to get closer, to create some opportunities to share, to be not just one more french, to know you more, to confirm what I had seen.

Our first start sent me to the moon and to hell in few hours. But I raised and tried to win you over again.

My invitation to Sylt was a good inspiration, a good example of what could be our life, an experience we should have repeated more often. Sweden, the path of Kurt Wallander, Berlin, Paris were enchanted moments, they demonstrated us what our life should be, would be.

You crossed the Rubicon in that Smart; I will never forget it.  For the next 3 years and 22 days you became my energy, my inspiration, my air, my sun, my present, my future, my smiles, my sins, my redemption.

I have been living only for you and when at your side. 

Far from you I was barely surviving, administrating what had to be, preparing for a common future.

You made me grow, you made me change, you made me a better person, you made me somebody worth loving.

We experienced, we tried, we failed, we tried again, we learned, we lived, we loved!

Our sex life was the mirror of our relationship; growing, intense, deep, inspiring, fulfilling.

I know these 3 years carried also some suffering. Some we could overcome and some in the last three months we have been too weak to fight, for good, and mostly bad reasons.

The pain might have won over the love but we should have no regrets.

These 3 years will be engraved in my memory for the rest of my life.
They have been filled with emotions, love, dreams, discovery, passion.
I had never been so much myself in my entire life.
I learned what I needed, what I really wanted, what I do not want any more.

There has been a before and now there is an after, a new life in front of me.

I would like to thank you.
For what we shared, for what you made me feel, for what you helped me learn.

You are a Star, a Shinning Sun, for ever now…

Advertisements

10 thoughts on “Closing a chapter…

  1. That’s a nice end of a long chapter. Your farewell is beautiful even if it is still bleeding inside you from time to time. You cannot erase so many intense years like that.
    Never forget your sentence: “I learned what I needed, what I really wanted, what I do not want any more” That has to be in your memory/brain forever.
    You love someone for what he/she is, you cannot change that person: you take the bad and the good stuff 😉
    Take care of you! Good evening 😉

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s